Jesus did so much preparation and formation work in me this month! I am amazed by what happens when we willingly surrender control and let him turn obedience into freedom.

Simple Pleasures

Tutoring kiddo’s new puppy!

Adventuring with my mentor

The consistency of my dad on Valentine’s Day

Snow!

Among the last weeks I have with my tutoring students. How can you teach multiplication and division with split peas? I’ve been enjoying the last little bit of time with them and the last chances I have to teach before transition overcomes me.

My newly created, Traveling spice kit. Lord, deliver us from bland food 😅

Aligning the Time: How is the Latin America Trip Logistics coming?

As many of you may know, at the end of January, I allowed the Lord to take me out of my classroom teaching job in preparation for a ministry training trip to Latin America.

Several days back, I had a dream that really struck me. In the dream, I was by myself in the front row of a full sized airplane, with various other people in rows behind me. Instead of the traditional placement of the pilot’s steering area, there was instead a spacious but clear glass dome.

While I was still in the process of buckling my seatbelt, the plane shot off like a rocket directly upwards. I was clinging to my seatbelt with both hands to avoid falling backwards into the plane. At some point, the plane dipped again like a roller coaster, and I was equally clenching my seat. The plane eventually rose back high into the sky before coming to a place of stability.

After such a vivid dream, I am certain beyond a shadow of a doubt that the connections, finances, and general logistics of this trip will take off pretty much all at once. In the meantime, I am focusing on getting myself as prepared as possible (with travel immunizations, downsizing, helping my landlord find the next tenant, etc) before it’s go time.

So how have I been spending my time?

In a nutshell, listening to God, training in the prophetic, reading, sorting the logistics, and generally getting myself ready for big step up that is coming. I am reassured by Hebrews 7:24-26, and the riches of God’s grace to accomplish the impossible on my behalf. I realize how even after I find the right Apostolic network, I will need to come up some levels in how I prophesy and speak pretty quickly. Therefore, I’m focusing on intimacy with Jesus and leaning on his great grace to be my sufficiency as I stretch my muscles in preparation for that time.

That being said, there have been some themes to my weeks

• Week #1: Week of February 1st LOTS of writing
• Week #2: Week of February 7th Getting rid of SO MUCH stuff
• Week #3: Week of February 14th *It was around this time that I really slowed down and let God do some internal work on my heart, and just focused on him. Slowing down, focusing on Intimacy with Jesus, receiving his vision and blueprints for this season
• Week #4: Week of February 21st From intimacy, Quickening and Training mode. Going deeper to press into maturity, clarity in waiting, steadfast joy

Themes this Month

As I’ve spent time with him, the Lord has had me focus on 3 areas of training in preparation for departure.

1. A LOT about deliverance ministry
2. Language, impartation of foreign tongues (xenoglossia), and the sound of his voice across cultures
3. Increasing quickening, clarity, and stretching capacity for personal and national prophetic words

What trip specifics have you heard from the Lord?

Based on the close tracking I’ve been doing with God, these are the details I’ve got so far about the shape of this trip.

Based on some time I spent with the Lord walking the grounds of local embassies here in DC, I think it is most likely my trip will start in Brazil.

Interested in learning more about the purposes of this trip? Check out the Documents Below!

CLICK HERE to give to my Latin America Trip on GoFundMe

Cleaning House

This month, I’ve exerted a truly colossal amount of effort in downsizing.

I cannot begin to tell you how many household items I’ve given away to new homes this month.

The Lord directed me to first start by gathering the things that I definitely want to keep. Of all the objects I’ve gathered over the years, I’ve decided to just keep these elements for decoration and sentimental value. All in all, they fit into a small carry on size piece of luggage. Everything else (including notes from students and friends) I shipped to my dad for storage.

Some but not all of the items include:

• A teddy bear I made when I was 9
• About 5 truly phenomenal history books
• My traveling spice kit
• My hammock
• A mosaic frame I made
• My marble collection
• My shell collection
• My rock collection (sensing a theme? lol)
• A book of Kansas landscapes to visually explain where I’m from to people

Personal items

Taking early to Glasgow

In about 2 weeks, I will be in Glasgow Scotland again for a week of in depth training in Deliverance Ministry. Since I plan to attend the University of Edinburgh in September 2022, I’m going to leave the aforementioned personal items and a suitcase of non-essentials + winter clothes with my friend in Glasgow.

As a plus, nothing could have prepared me and my wardrobe better for the May-July humid weather of the Southern Hemisphere like living in Washington, DC. Has anyone been to DC during the summertime? It’s like you’re swimming in soup. 😅

Travel Ready

Last of all, this is the luggage that I’m hoping to bring with me as I travel. I’m leaving at least half a suitcase empty and bringing a mini collapsable carry on duffel in case I accumulate things as I go.

Staying with my Mentor in DC

Last of all, these are the things I’m leaving with my mentor here in DC: 2 suitcases containing 100+ journals I’ve written since age 9, and my guitar. I hope to swing through DC again on the way to Edinburgh so I can take my guitar with my to school. I will likely leave the equivalent of my life in my mentor’s very capable hands until there is a period of relative stability to go and fetch them. One day, these journals will be books, and I cant wait for the day I have time to scribe out (most of) everything I’ve ever thought to write down. Talk about soul searching!

Books I’m Reading

As you might imagine, I’ve needed to disconnect from technology for the sake of balance this month. Here are some excellent reads I’ve enjoyed while unplugging.

Jesus Loves Japan

I found this book going down a “Portuguese/migration” rabbit trail. It is so powerful! Specifically, it focuses on Pentecostalism within Portuguese Nikkei migrant communities in Japan, and the way communities between borders have found meaning, identity, and stability in Christ.

La Vida Sacra: Contemporary Hispanic Sacramental Theology

While reading this book has been a homework for seminary, it’s been a labor of love. One of the author’s main points is the a Latin American cosmic sacramentality (seeing the divine in everyday objects) may provide a deeper understanding of miracles. In reading this book, I realize how much my theology has been influenced by this blurred sense of the natural and supernatural (the literary equivalent would be the genre of Magic Realism that evolved out of Latin America). My lived experience readily rejects Western culture’s division of the supernatural and natural (through pagan Ancient Greek philosophy) in favor of a fluid, integrated cosmology.

Facing Leviathan: Leadership, Influence, and Creating in a Cultural Storm

Someone in my Emerging Prophets training program recommended this book, and wow wow wow is it sharp. Without bitterness or excess drama, Mark Sayers exposes several assumptions in Western models of leadership and social dynamics. I would recommend this book to anyone looking to become a bridge between the traditions of the past and the demands of the future (across contexts).

Songs Worth Sharing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?fbclid=IwAR1G6a05atBlZ3gvbilusNlLV9tE8H1z1_7CCyx9MV09-gbtYuLOSGFEpMM&v=HbdCa1BxNI8&feature=youtu.be

^^I love this song because the syntax and rhythm actually makes sense in Spanish. It isn’t just a cover of an English song, but it was made by Hispanohablantes FOR Hispanohablantes (and thus, the rhythm and words are a fluid garment).

Prayer Requests:

For all the things on this list (and the many other bits and pieces God will add) to gel! Should be a delightful time.

Here’s to the next chapter,

Haley

This month was full of extreme joy and cost.

Leaving Timeframe

This month, I made the costliest decision since coming to faith in Jesus, and left my job in the classroom.

Last Easter, a dream from the Lord about leaving my job began a process of discernment that lasted most of 2021. By late June, was concretely considering leaving. However, through dreams and seeing in the Spirit, Lord made it clear that it wasn’t yet the timing. I began to sense the immediacy of change in early November, and while in Scotland. As I explored what this change could move, I received a series of birthing dreams where God increasingly shed clarity on this transition. On Christmas Eve, I received a dream with so much weight that it felt as solid as the ground itself. In this dream, the Lord told me, “Get ready, you have one month left in your position.” I wrestled with the decision to leave, but after:

• 200+ rows on my spreadsheet of dreams, visions, and conversations with God
• various prophetic words, including one very senior prophetic word about relocation and God giving me a mass deliverance mantle
• 7.5 months of waiting
• realizing that 20% of my scribed conversations with God were about leaving

I submitted my notice. In the remainder of this post, I will describe the radical things God has done since then, and why leaving was the best decision I could have made.

Leaving them in Jesus’ hands

I did various things to prepare students’ for my departure, but probably the most meaningful exercise was asking them to actively entrust me into Jesus’ hands.

After studying John 14 and John 17 most of the week, we prayed.

• I reminded them how valuable they are to me. I would only give them to Jesus, and I would only be willing to give them up for Jesus.
• I told them that just as God has our names written on the palms of his hands (Isaiah 49;16), their names are permanently written on my heart. I can’t replace them and they can’t replace me, but God will give us things to love in the people around us.
• I reminded them that we are connected permanently through their faith in Christ and by the Holy Spirit
• I told them that if God is sending me something new, that means he is also sending them something new (like when Jesus went away and the disciples received the Holy Spirit). Celebrate, because God is good and he will reveal to you the new thing.
• I prayed that the new teachers’ love for them would be just as much if not more than the love I had for them. And that their love for the new teachers would be just as much if not more than the love that they had for me.

As I prayed, I placed their pictures in Jesus’ open hands.

Then, I asked a representative from the class to come place my picture in Jesus’ hands.

One little girl eagerly volunteered. She left her desk, came around the side, but stopped when she came in front of where I was sitting, about four feet away from the board. With tears starting to come, she said, “I can’t do it. It’s too hard.” I stopped her from going back to her seat and said, “Sometimes when we do a hard thing, we really can’t do it on our own. S, would you come and help? Each of you hold the picture together, on either side. When we can’t do it on our own, we will get people to help us.” The entire time, I thought about how Simon helped Jesus carry his cross.

When they had put my picture inside Jesus’ hands, I asked the whole class to pray quietly for a few minutes, and in their own words, release me to Jesus. And I tried not to cry as they prayed.

Retelling Favorite Memories

Due to the kindness of our God, the Lord sent a seraphim angel Friday night to put me in a trance, pouring out fire and liberating joy as I slept. As I came out of the encounter, the Lord sent other angels to minister healing like antiseptic to the center of my chest and body. God comprehensively used this encounter to heal me of much of the grief of giving up my children. The Lord in his kindness was unwilling for me to enter into this season of rest unhealed.

Get Ready for the New

So what could make all this cost worth it?

As one prophet said in prophesying this change, “You have to off board in order to onboard onto the new thing.” My journey in DC has taken me as far as it can go, and God is about to write an entirely new story. God is sovereignly calling me back to Latin America for a 4-6 month season of rest, sabbatical, and exploration of the deliverance call he has placed on my life. I will then go on to study a one year Taught Master’s Degree in World Christianity at the University of Edinburgh, in order to understand better the old and new work of the Holy Spirit within Asia, Africa, Latin America, and the Middle East. As a fruit of this training in the supernatural and study, I will be able to come alongside churches across the globe to empower children to prophesy.

I am beyond excited to return to a Latin America, because it feels like home. This will be a season of spontaneity and learning to trust the power of God.

My goals for this trip are to:

• build trust and a relational network of individuals in Latin America whose hearts are aligned to this work and the active revelation of the Holy Spirit
• come by invitation, as a listener, honoring local leaders
• align with God’s heart for the people
• rest, explore what the Holy Spirit is doing, and if he leads, allow him to do the unexpected through me

How does any of this connect to the work I’ve done in the classroom?

As a student in my seminary and as a teacher at my Catholic school, the Lord has delighted to use me to invite people in traditional contexts to his beauty.

Ready or not, we are about to see a fulfillment of Acts 2:17 where children of every nation, tribe, and tongue (Rev. 7:9) will prophesy.

In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams.

Acts 2:17

Through my ministry, children will prophesy out of every corner of the earth. It will shame the striving and the foolish structures of adults (1 Corinthians 1:27) and empower the Bride to stand in power until the day of Jesus

As I and others have asked the Holy Spirit to reveal his heart for both Latin America and Edinburgh, we have seen nothing but books!

God is sifting, repurposing, and redeeming empty traditionalism.

He has new books and stories for this specific season, and is radically backing those who are willing to stand to create the new thing.

I am zealous, especially for institutions who have been marked by traditionalism, to be part of the Ready Bride in this season. God has made it so clear that he will bring people whose hearts are aligned to back me logistically and financially. Whether with just a few people or with many, he will accomplish what he wants to in this season, in this ministry on the earth.

Even so, my heart is hungry to see individuals included in the army of this move of God so that they can receive the credit for what God is about to do on the earth, like Jael. At this point, I’m writing scholarship essays not because of concern for finances, but because I so want traditional institutions to receive this invitation.

These are characteristics of people I’m looking to partner with, relationally and financially:

• Passionate about youth and the ministry of the Holy Spirit
• Believes in the importance of partnering with revelation
• Excited to see a variety of cultures see themselves reflected in Christ
• Longs to see sons and daughters prophesy
• Expects big things of God and isn’t willing to remain in fear
• (optionally) Hungry to repurpose old things into something new

More Information and How to Sow into these next steps:

GoFundMe page for Latin America

GoFundMe page for University of Edinburgh

Do you know anyone whose heart would be organically aligned to support my work in Latin America and Edinburgh? You are welcome to share this post with anyone who the Holy Spirit highlights to you.

Multiplying Encounters: The Importance of Heart Alignment

As I have obeyed God to leave my job, God has been tangibly accelerating and intensifying my supernatural encounters. In kindness, he’s been training me in my sleep and waking hours, and has even begun to send prophetic words in Spanish. While I was fluent in Spanish before this moment, it’s awesome to see him transfer my capacity to prophesy to a new language and give specific instructions and verses that will define my ministry. I’m leaving out some details for the sake of privacy, but suffice it to say, this past week has been gloriously nuts.

As the Lord has started to form me into new shape I need to be for the season that comes next, he has made it clear that he will open doors and supply every need. God has been teaching me that the bulk of the work that needs done right now isn’t actually logistical, but related to being aligned to God’s heart. As I’ve walked through radical encounters this week, I have found that anointing for seeing people set free means allowing your heart to be aligned to God’s overwhelming love, his hatred of evil, his effervescent joy, and his sorrow. When your heart is aligned to him, God is able to use you to release what he wills in a space, as incense that touches the entire group of people, or for interactions with individuals.

This really should not surprise us. As I’ve reflected on scripture this week, I’m realizing that every time the people are blessed, it comes out of times when they are aligned with God’s heart.

• Abraham was blessed out of his alignment with God’s father heart (Genesis 17-22)
• Deborah was blessed because of her desire to see the captives set free, inability to settle for less (Judges 4-5)
• John the Beloved was blessed because he depended on Jesus like Jesus depends on the Father (John 13:23)

Prayer Requests

Please join me in praying that:

• God would bring an abundance of fearless partners who are excited for what he is about to do on the earth
• God would open doors with the right people, whose hearts are or will be aligned to see captives set free in Latin America and see children prophesy all over the globe
• That the Holy Spirit would help my family navigate how to entrust me over to God
• Grace and ease over logistics of moving and endings

Songs of this Month

By the end of January, I imagine my life could look pretty different than it does right now. In the meantime, let’s celebrate the work that God did in December!

Celebrating Jesus in Community

This Christmas, my students celebrated Jesus as the Light of the World. Check out this video of them explaining how Jesus’s birth changes everything.

We watched The Star nativity movie, ate popcorn, and drank hot chocolate.

We ate too much sugar, imagined Jesus’s birth in Legos, received gifts, played Blooket math games, and rested.

Fourth grade planned and facilitated their own Secret Santa gift exchange!

Inspired by the way students’ have become passionate for the word of God, my colleagues and I gave away 15 bibles to students who would not otherwise have them! After months of waiting for the perfect timing, my students were able to receive the word of God as celebrated the Word of God being born into the world.

What’s Next?

In mid-December, I asked students, “What emotion do you need God’s help feeling, either because you feel that way and you want help carrying it, or because you haven’t felt that way in a long time?” Their answers blew me away. After sharing with my colleagues, we’ve decided to lead students through a series about the Emotional Life of Christ once we return from the Winter holidays. In this difficult school year, may our children encounter the inner wholeness of Jesus and know that there are healthy ways to feel each emotion.

Visiting Family

I spent this Christmas with my dad and extended family in Northwestern Iowa. I’ve been looking forward to having quality time with my dad, whose interest in the supernatural has become a frequent topic of conversation. While my dad doesn’t consider himself a Christian, he is very supportive of my faith and demonstrates a high degree of curiosity about the power of God. Please pray that my father would experience an immeasurable hunger and that it will lead him to the source of all mysteries.

There are a lot of good gifts I get from my father. We are similar in humor, creative writing, education, and love for nature. For a little Christmas entertainment, my aunt happened to find some wigs in some dress up clothes her grandkids once used. In typical Nus fashion, I bet my dad $1 to wear the wig all around town. And he did.

Another reason I am happy to have been in Iowa is because my dad and aunt are living in my paternal grandparent’s home. Since August, I have had dreams about the work God is doing to cleanse my family and bloodline. While in Iowa, I had the chance to pray over the home in a way that significantly effected the atmosphere. It gives me even more hope for the work God is doing in us, based on the faithfulness of past generations.

In Iowa, I noticed that my dad saved a clay hippo I once made in grade school. I also found this handmade Christmas sweater, in perfect proportions. We are a family that goes thrift shopping for entertainment, and Northern Iowa did not disappoint.

I also got a chance to see some Amish stores and community life. My favorite part was when one little boy had his sister in a tiny shopping cart and kept having to be told to slow down so he didn’t run the other kids over. Same goofy kids, just a different place.

I got to spend time with my aunt’s Collie mix, Lily. When it comes to playing fetch, she is highly skilled and unyielding.

Click here to see a goofy video of Lily battling the evil Eyeball yo-yo I got at the thrift store

Enjoying Media

I have finally gotten to the point in Christmas break where I have the stamina to read and can pleasantly cease production. Here are some of my favorite forms of media that I’ve found to unwind.

Best Christmas Song

This is probably my favorite traditional Christmas song. I love the way these writers rewrote the lyrics to celebrate Christ as Prophet, Priest, and King!

Best Youtube Video

Best Book

If you’re looking for accessible and engaging history, check out this book on the history of Mail order brides in North America. There’s plenty of great detail but the author’s style makes it like drinking ice cream in your coffee.

Best Movie

Like how some people might crave saltwater taffy, I crave good satire. If you’re looking for something satisfying to chew on, I recommend “Don’t Look Up” (on Netflix right now). Timely and well-crafted.

Prayer

Please pray:

• That God would sovereignly continue the work he’s started in my family
• For ease in coming transitions and clarity
• In Thanksgiving, for the God who has been so kind this year

Praise the Lord!