Stepping Stones of Growing Faith: Stories of Trusting God

He makes winds his messengers, flames of fire his servants.

Psalm 104:4

As I consider the process of acceleration God has had me on in the last year, I see it as the fruit of the 8 years of faith formation. Like walking up a set of gradually steepening stairs, there were concrete events that forced allowed my faith to grow (lol). Today, I’m sharing some of the lessons I’ve learned. While I don’t consider myself to be an expert, I’ve chosen to risk sharing personal stories with the hope that they will provide interested readers with more of a grid to trust God. The main thing anyone should takeaway from this article that when you put your trust in God, he is good for it.

Believing for One Reasonable Thing

By the time I was nearing the end of college, I had been a Christian for about a year. I had enjoyed that sense of easy dependency and gracious handholding that God provides to us when we need it. But as it became time to figure out post-graduation plans, he started to teach me to eat solid food.

At this point, I knew that my calling was somewhere between education and ministry (the church). I knew I had an easygoing, natural affinity with children, which had come as a surprise, since I had always assumed teachers were permissive, indirect people. While I came to discover that there are successful teachers of all kinds of personalities, it was true that I had to learn an entirely new set of skills (praise God). Especially at 21 years old, that was for the best.

As someone graduating with a degree in Psychology, I needed to find an Alternate Teacher Certification Program. After applying to Americorps but getting rejected because I asked too many probing questions on the interview, I had a very strong feeling about one teacher training program out of DC. I ended up applying for that program and that program only, as I started to get nauseous thinking about anything else. I was in gospel choir and various Christian groups at the time, and I fully intended to just worship until something shifted. And it did shift, but I had to wait months. With my qualifications, I got accepted into the program… but the person with the list failed to call me (well after they had called others). I really think the Lord allowed me to hang out in that furnace of waiting a bit longer because it was doing something good for me. Still, I was accepted in March, well ahead of the time I would graduate and needed to figure things out. God knew what I could handle, and he allowed the waiting period to end with enough time for me to process what it would mean to live Kansas and relocate to a much different environment.

The primary challenges for this level of faith were:

• Stop controlling the timing. Don’t be discouraged if it takes a while.
• Realize that God answers prayers, not people. Direct your prayers rightly.

Believing for Something Big with Conditions (Partial Surrender)

From what I can tell, the Lord’s primary purpose in having me in DC was to learn from as many organizations and people as possible. He had seen the way that I flourished in a large university context, and knew that giving me access to the nations while in the US was an appropriate sized challenge. He also continued having me learn from a variety of diverse denominations, ethnic groups, and communities to give me more experience building relationally with different types of people.

While I moved to DC in 2016, God gave me several years of building solid friendships before he kicked off the next season of acceleration on my life. Within 18 months, I had to trust God for a new apartment, a new job, and a new church. You can read more about those early acceleration days here.

In those days, I became a fan of practicing my favorite rule of impossible circumstances: Celebrate the blessing before it actually happens. At key moments, I’d worship and pour myself a glass of wine, thanking Jesus for the promises that he would answer through the next promotion. I’d make spreadsheets listing things I was sensing strongly, make declarations, and would cheer when those particular conditions would ultimately be met and exceeded through the blessing. During this season, God demonstrated that he wanted me to dream bigger and bigger dreams, which did came cost.

Let me give you an example. When I graduated my Teacher Training program in 2018, I graduated after finishing my Master’s degree during my first solo year in the classroom. That was such a gauntlet of an experience that I told the Lord, “The only way I’ll ever go back for a doctorate is if it’s in theology.” I estimated that I’d be back in a decade, because that’s what normal people do. But the zeal to learn and eat more of the word manifested in my body as physical hunger, and I was reeled in like a fish. Within 18 months of finishing my doctorate, I had been accepted and was enrolling in a Doctorate of Educational Ministry program.

So what did this time of acceleration in DC buy me? Well, several things. I say, “buy” because change comes at a cost. We serve a good God who knows exactly what he’s doing. But sometimes in order to go through the very narrow door, it can be costly.

One of the costs of this season was community. In exchange for relational range, I sacrificed comfort (in this case, a deeper sense of belonging). God brought me into. a season where I joined various groups not as a member, but as an ethnographer, a learner, and a friend. I attended an Episcopal Seminary, worked at a Catholic school, attended a conservative Charismatic church, as just some examples. I learned so much from each of these groups, and they have formed me in ways I couldn’t have predicted at the time. God was training me to be a bridge and a communicator, speaking the language of different people groups. As much as I loved collecting people, I grieved having a place where I could be 100% myself.

Another cost was certainty. In exchange for clarity, I sacrificed control, and the illusion of that solid sense of concrete knowing. Do you have concrete dreams? As in, places that are absolutely on your bucket list? People whose hands you definitely want to shake? Well, after a while, those dreams became less important than a greater sense of purpose and direction that was emerging. How much are you willing to give up to serve the greater thing? Remember, it is a very narrow door. It wasn’t just routines, habits, the casual weekly latte you give up for Lent. This was the ability to tell people “Yeah, I will be in this city for a few more years.” Or, “Yeah, I’d love to come visit over Spring Break.” Who knows where I’ll be, and when I’ll be there?

And I had to keep starting from scratch. The thing about acceleration is that it gets faster and faster. Just as I would start to get a dream, the biggest dream I could possibly conceive of at the time, within 6-12 months it wouldn’t fit any more. I was always putting on new clothes. This acceleration was only exacerbated by the COVID-19 pandemic, which God used to allow me to rest and change rapidly.

For example, I knew that I was drawn to the Southwestern US because of the Latino and Indigenous culture, and I knew I was drawn to leadership and the educational sector. The craziest thing I could imagine was being a school principal in New Mexico or starting a school down there. And for good reason! I was used to working with refugees, I loved speaking Spanish, I had learned a lot of really wonderful teaching methods in DC that could be useful to that area of the country. Using man’s logic, it would have made sense. But ultimately in the process of discernment, the doors remained shut and it gave me more time to rest and percolate. And sixth months after the doors stayed closed, I received a significant prophetic word about being called to Latin America more generally. And that word helped me see that all of the ministry I had been doing with Latino refugees was ultimately because God was calling me to the continent. It was the same thing with going back to seminary.

While those were costly days, the Lord cut them short eventually. And the same week I received the prophetic word about Latin America, another established prophet gave me a word that healed a lot of the whiplash. He saw me as a sheep that had been driven fast through the streets of an urban environment, and the Lord taking me out of that setting in order to show me the lay of the land I’d inherit. Suffice it to say, the Lord knew the cost and was in the midst of the process. He didn’t leave it unfinished.

Challenges:

• In waiting, stop controlling the timing. Don’t be discouraged if it takes a while.
• Realize that God answers prayers, not people. Direct your prayers rightly.
• Stop telling God your requirements; he knows what he’s doing better than you do.
• Be okay with things changing faster than you expected. Accept change when it comes faster than you expected.
• Recognize that anything God takes away, he will restore. Do not give yourself over to self-pity or despair, that will ruin you.

Believing for Something Nonsensical Abruptly and without Conditions

A few days before last Christmas, the Lord confirmed various words about me leaving my teaching job. Once again, clarity came sooner than I expected.

I remember when I got the call to leave my job. Honestly, it was sooner than I ever expected. My spirit was yearning for more, but the time frame really startled me. You can read more about that process here.

While God had trained me for partial surrender, leaving work brought me closer to full surrender. I was no longer foolish enough to put conditions on what God should do. Full surrender is in not having spreadsheets of conditions. It’s in living day by day, trusting who God is, and expecting things to work out because of his character. It’s having a clear sense of what God is doing, but giving him complete control in how you get there.

In order to give God greater control, I gave up my credibility. While I didn’t realize it at first, this exchange ultimately bought me greater freedom. In the most performance driven city in North America, you can safely assume that various people thought I had lost my mind. I shocked a lot of people because I had been doing a great job. I showed few signs of needing to leave, and didn’t immediately lack strength. I had plenty of physical energy, I had plenty of emotional energy, I was carrying my grade level, and I was coming up to the most manageable part of the school year. My students generally loved me, and if I wanted to, I could coast until June. I’ve never done that since I have been in the classroom, but I knew enough from watching other people do it to intuit how it could be done. I remember sitting there, asking God if I was over-spiritualizing burn out, wondering why I still felt capable of staying. He just responded time and time again that he wanted me to focus on this idea of joy and that he was giving me more than I asked for.

Maybe if the Lord hadn’t given the explicit word to leave, I could have pretended that those dreams and words about “change, change, all change” were a suggestion. However, once you have received rock solid marching orders, you become accountable for what you do with it. My spirit was no longer just chafing to leave, I was rioting to obey. The thought of disobeying the word made me nauseous. I wasn’t thrilled about the likelihood of humiliating myself, but I couldn’t bear to be in rebellion. If I had stayed, the emotional and physical strength that I felt previously would have eventually been eroded by the discomfort I felt in my spirit to remain in rebellion. I would have dissolved like the fragments of a wet paper towel. Or, I would be standing there wondering what I had missed. Yes, God can reroute us after disobedience. But we serve a perfect God. Why not just obey the first time?

And so I went. The trickiest part of this season was not absorbing shame or blame from others that God’s plan turned out different than mine. I also had to be careful to not absorb jealousy from others that God had given me permission to leave. This process was made all the more awkward by the fact that I had to spend an additional 6 weeks getting rid of all my stuff while still living within a 5 minute walk of my former school’s front door. Yikes.

But again, when God asks that much of you, it is only for your good.

Weeping may endure for a night, But a shout of joy comes in the morning.

Psalm 30:5

If you don’t give up on what God said, he will unpack it for you when you are ready to receive it.

So what was all that about?

In the months after I left my job, I began to sense (January), then see (March-May), then comprehend the greater context of why God had me leave (May-now).

God wanted to take me out of my former DC context, and all communities in that context. He needed me out so I could do less, align more to how he made me, and receive more. The issue was “the good versus the great.” All of this was a gift I didn’t know I needed. About 10 months before I left DC, over Easter weekend, God showed me that I’d be carried out by Grace, personified. After all that time, God sent travel because he had more to show me. It was a gift..

What about right now?

In the past two months, God has had me slow way down so that he could deal with things that had accumulated during all the last 6 years. While healing is still a work in progress, God is pouring out grace on the process. The winds of acceleration that drove me to connect with the right people and places in February – July are now accelerating the healing process. There is a protection from rawness, fatigue, and anointed ease for restoration. It’s nuts. If I’m going to be completely honest, I think this is probably the most meaningful work I’ve done with the Lord in the last calendar year. And I wonder how much of learning to hear and obey his voice during traveling was about building the trust needed for deeper healing.

Challenges:

• In waiting, stop controlling the timing. Don’t be discouraged if it takes a while.
• Realize that God answers prayers, not people. Direct your prayers rightly.
• Stop telling God your requirements; he knows what he’s doing better than you do.
• Be okay with things changing faster than you expected. Accept change when it comes faster than you expected.
• Recognize that anything God takes away, he will restore. Do not give yourself over to self-pity or despair, that will ruin you.
• Don’t absorb shame from others. Pray for them to know what freedom from performance feels like.
• Don’t absorb jealousy from others. Pray for them to receive a true revelation of sonship.
• Let God’s plan be greater.

Believing for Something Nonsensical without Conditions and Only Getting Part of it Right

What kind of story would this be if I only included the highlights? I’ve left out the majority of my failures, which weren’t particularly noteworthy. Times when I ran recklessly after things I wanted and forgot that we serve a King and a Kingdom. Temper tantrums and stalling tactics. Boundary testing and walking out consequences. Come now, the consequences of sin are laid out clearly enough in the Bible that I hardly need to share about where that leads.

But what about times where you get part of a word right, yet somewhat botch it because God was doing something much bigger than it even occurred to you to ask about?

As some people may know, last August, I found out that I was accepted into a degree program at the University of Edinburgh. As I was applying, I was pretty careful. I asked the Lord for revelation about what themes to write about in my application essays, what date he wanted me to write the essays (in case the numbers mattered symbolically), and about the effect me studying there would have on my ministry long term. In October, I found out that I was accepted to study, and even had the opportunity to visit the university while in Glasgow, Scotland training in prophesy with friends. I didn’t have the sense of certainty I expected to have walking the campus, and I was surprised that the course listings didn’t focus very much on Latin America, to my disappointment. But combined with other dreams related to Scotland, it seemed promising.

Fast forward to January 2022, and it’s just two days after I submitted my notice. The night before, I had been working on scholarship essays for the University of Edinburgh, because I was still trying to figure out finances. As someone who keeps careful scribed notes, I had 6+ computer tabs open to synthesize different previous conversations I’d had with people, books, and revelation (worded carefully). I wove prophetic words into the two application essays I wrote, because I had the conviction that I was essentially offering this university an opportunity to partner with a vision that God had given me for a network of trainings on an international level. Therefore, the scholarship application would be a litmus test to see if this particular organization was aligned to the vision. I remember asking God to send me angelic help put the revelation into writing, and the sharpening effect it had on me. **As a side note, asking for scribal help from angels is a practice I do often when really struggling to distill abstract concepts. For any Christians trying to parse wild ideas, I highly recommend it.**

That same night, I had an intense angelic encounter in a dream. Essentially, the angel told me that the Lord was sending me early for nations training because I had been careful not to “add anything to the message”. He said that my timings would start at 6am and not 10pm (very early versus very late). He also gave me a prophetic word in Spanish that will continue to define my ministry in Latin America. At the time I received this word, I thought that traveling early for a period of nations training would be in addition to studying in Edinburgh. Now, I really believe God sent it as a replacement. The degree I applied for related to the Global Church History. From what I can tell based on recent articles, the Lord still has managed to teach me weave revelation, church history, national history, and the bible together. I didn’t need to spend more time in an academic context to learn that, it was already something he had been growing in me.

Just as the angel said, as I prepared, doors started opening. I got rid of all my stuff, obediently left DC, and then doors began to open for me to visit several nations, last of all in an area of Brazil that I had seen various times in dreams. Yet here is the part where the story gets even weirder. In April, the scholarship applications weren’t successful, but I had peace. I figured that it could be possible for God to pay for it if he wanted to, but was starting to feel like the grace to even desire that was lifting.

Over my birthday (May 1), God gut checked me about what I really want. When I use the phrase “gut check”, I’m talking about the kind of conversation where God asks you plainly, “What is it that you really want?” Now, do I believe that God would have given me either choice? No, I think he still would have redirected me if I was seriously off (he is that kind, because he wants the best for us). But as someone who loves the whirlwind and does truly prefer to go fast, God sometimes uses this strategy to slow me down and help me listen closely to my heart. (He did the same thing this July, which is why I’m currently in Seattle with family).

In that May 1st conversation, I told God that what I want most is to be in community. And later that month, I declined the University of Edinburgh offer and left everything up to the Lord.

This past week, God has driven me back to re-examine those scholarship application essays, the ones were I submitted several prophetic words. I needed to understand the link between what I had written and why it had attracted such a wind of favor from the Lord.

Having re-read that material, I think I’m beginning to understand. I honestly think that because of its historic value, the University of Edinburgh maybe symbolize something about the Scottish Educational sector or church groups that I’m still unravelling. Furthermore, the vision relates to technology and apostolic centers, except it’s packaged in very academic language. All that isn’t particularly surprising, because back in January, I had no idea what an Apostolic center was. The vision talks all about relational ministry that equips and gathers different people groups to activate gifts of prophesy.

In the Spring, I stepped into the vision without realizing it. In each of the places I went, God sent me to emerging evangelists, teachers, apostles, prophets, and shepherds who were all in roughly the same part of the emerging to intermediate part of the process. God did not send me to fully formed ministries, he sent me to small groups of individuals who were in ministry. His goal was for me to gather and befriend other emerging leaders so that we would be support one another over the next set of years to reach our collective goals. This connects to a word I heard back in November 2021 about babies in ministry birthing babies and radical changes in leadership in the Church post COVID-19. Without realizing it, I stumbled into the effects of that supernatural reallocation on the earth.

This attitude of this movement reminds me of a word God spoke in a dream over my cohort of prophet friends: That we would be known by our humility and desire to serve one another. And that we would not become conceited over the size of our gifts.

Challenges:

• In waiting, stop controlling the timing. Don’t be discouraged if it takes a while.
• Realize that God answers prayers, not people. Direct your prayers rightly.
• Stop telling God your requirements; he knows what he’s doing better than you do.
• Be okay with things changing faster than you expected. Accept change when it comes faster than you expected.
• Recognize that anything God takes away, he will restore. Do not give yourself over to self-pity or despair, that will ruin you.
• Don’t absorb shame from others. Pray for them to know what freedom from performance feels like.
• Don’t absorb jealousy from others. Pray for them to receive a true revelation of sonship.
• Let God’s plan be greater.
• Pay attention to the parts of an atmosphere, organization, or person that do not resonate. Find a way to test the alignment.
• After heavy duty holy angelic encounters, follow the instructions but don’t be distressed if you don’t understand for a long while afterwards. Ask your questions. When the mystery feels sealed, don’t stress. The Lord will take you and lead you along by the hand. He will reveal it when you have time and capacity to process it.
• Your accuracy (whether you got it right) is actually less important than your obedience. Let God be the one who is most accurate and respond with your entire heart. When you respond from a pure heart, he will cause the road to unravel itself before you and you will not stumble (Proverbs 4:12). It ultimately isn’t about you.

Believing for Something Nonsensical over Multiple Years without Conditions

I’ve said several times now that in exchange for clarity, we give God control. But what if I told you that the amount of control you surrender is directly related the the amount of clarity you receive?

Listen, I’ve known people with some WILD promises from the Lord. The Lord tells them things related to the identity of key people, timings, sequence of events, geographies, and more. How is that possible? Well, if you have a greater degree of surrender, you leave more room for his perfect will. He loves it when we give him *complete* control over our friendships, careers, marriages, children, geographies, etc. He is wildly creative and his plans are better than ours every single time.

I know that you are Abraham’s descendants. Yet you are looking for a way to kill me, because you have no room for my word.

John 8:37

Do you have room for God’s word in you? If God showed up and said, “Hey, we’re doing it this way…”, would you throw a fit? God already wants to elect his servants for things that are truly wild. He doesn’t just save the cool assignments for the prophets and the apostles, he wants to receive your full permission regardless of your position. Whatever gifts you use fruitfully, he will amplify. The way that God selects people for specific assignments isn’t just destiny, it’s determined by every day stewardship and living a life that is trustworthy.

So let’s say God sends you a truly wild prophetic word about marriage, family, ministry, etc. First, you have to receive the word. When you give God permission to do what he wants to do anyways, he will explain more as you inquire of the Lord about it. I have often seen the Father smile eagerly and excited say something along the line of, “Ask me another question!” at this part of the process. Don’t be afraid to be completely transparent; he loves that. As your faith grows, he will gradually send you further pieces because you’ll be ready to receive them.

So why do some words take a multi-year process?

Some words are so wild that God needs to walk you through the full implications of them at a pace you can bear. Realistically, human beings have definite limits. God cares more that we understand the ripple effects of a word and that it bears fruit in our relationship with him than that we just get the facts. The word has to go deep and get planted on the inside, otherwise it wont be fruitful. If you skip the inquiry or nourishment process, what kind of fruit can possibly come from that? Many fruit trees take years to bear fruit. Oranges take 2 years. Apples can take 4 years. Pears can take 6! The Lord knows what tree you are, and the process you need to be fruitful. Let him be the Gardener.

The luxury of a multiyear process is that God has so much to say. He gets us fully ready! He wants to go at a pace where things are healed up and ready to go when he finally sends the ending. While it seems like a long time to wait, none of the time in dialogue with the Father goes to waste. He always can share more, and he’s worth enjoying in the moment, regardless of the promise. Trust him.

There is a word in my life that I have been walking out since November 2020. I will not write about it until I see the fruit, but suffice it to say that this process has become some of the best training and fellowship with the Lord that I’ve ever had. God has healed me so much in and through it, in spite of the emotionally demanding nature of the task. I’m looking forward to celebrating the final result with friends and the testimony that will come from it. Lord knows, I have enough material to write a book.

Challenges:

• In waiting, stop controlling the timing. Don’t be discouraged if it takes a while.
• Realize that God answers prayers, not people. Direct your prayers rightly.
• Stop telling God your requirements; he knows what he’s doing better than you do.
• Be okay with things changing faster than you expected. Accept change when it comes faster than you expected.
• Recognize that anything God takes away, he will restore. Do not give yourself over to self-pity or despair, that will ruin you.
• Don’t absorb shame from others. Pray for them to know what freedom from performance feels like.
• Don’t absorb jealousy from others. Pray for them to receive a true revelation of sonship.
• Let God’s plan be greater.
• Pay attention to the parts of an atmosphere, organization, or person that do not resonate. Find a way to test the alignment.
• After heavy duty holy angelic encounters, follow the instructions but don’t be distressed if you don’t understand for a long while afterwards. Ask your questions. When the mystery feels sealed, don’t stress. The Lord will take you and lead you along by the hand. He will reveal it when you have time and capacity to process it.
• Your accuracy (whether you got it right) is actually less important than your obedience. Let God be the one who is most accurate and respond with your entire heart. When you respond from a pure heart, he will cause the road to unravel itself before you and you will not stumble (Proverbs 4:12). It ultimately isn’t about you.
• Understand that less clarity often is a sign that God is respecting your limits. Prioritize quality over speed.
• Enjoy the process.

Believing for Something Nonsensical that will take my Whole Lifetime and Hopefully Endure After

Have you ever had a dream that is so big that you start to get a little bit scared?

Or one that is so big that without a shadow of a doubt, you will need God sized help (and other people) to pull it off?

In April, someone I know received a prophetic word that is officially the most extreme thing I’ve ever heard come out of a prophets mouth. The impact and scope of the word still cause a lack of words. Since hearing that prophesy, the scope of the word has become a high ceiling. For the time being, my strength fails when I try to imagine bigger.

The feeling of not being able to dream bigger is something that only has happened to me in intervals where I’m already at capacity, and not for this long. When the garment starts to feel too tight, I normally give the Holy Spirit permission to have me daydream about whatever wild things are on his mind. I started seminary, moved apartments, and changed jobs all based on holy future-focused dreaming.

This sense of wordless awe reminds me of the sense of excitement and terror I have when I think about the miracles, signs, and wonders God is sending children in this era. God has gradually been giving me a vision for the scope of healthy supernatural communities that this movement of spirit-filled youth will require. The size of the vision will require training adults, teens, and children inter-generationally. It will likely require travel, training, and team building for the rest of my life. And it will not be finished in my lifetime, but will be progressively outworked by generations and geographies of people who God aligns. You can read more about that vision here.

Since I began to put the vision into words two months ago, God pulled people to it by the Holy Spirit. When I have shared the vision with communities of people, there has been shocking degrees of favor across denominations, ethnic groups, nations, and political backgrounds, and educational backgrounds. There is pressing hunger to see it established across sectors of Education, Church, and Family. Based on dreams, through my life the vision will also likely influence Media, Technology, and Business.

When I have shared, I notice that the vision is bigger than me as a person. It is big enough that even people who do not like me personally have been interested in hearing more. Beyond this topic being a synthesis of my personal interests, it’s been incredibly easy to share because I essentially just open my mouth and there is so much hunger that people cant help but respond.

“Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”

Ephesians 4:12

The wind of acceleration is coming on this vision because it’s something God has wanted for such a long time. The roaring of those winds in the Spirit is deafening. God WILL see the nations and generations of the earth equipped, he radiates holy intensity.

If I am being honest, other people’s hunger for the vision is intimidating. I am well aware that I still need a lot of training in prophetic ministry and children’s prophetic ministry, and will need years. Not just that, but as my life prepares to take an increasingly public turn, I’m more aware now than ever how I will need to intentionally cultivate privacy. I need strong leaders who can help give me a grid for what something this scope can look like. My ministry’s resources, time, and energy will need careful stewardship.

Yet none of this is too big for God. He will give me the training that is adequate. He will give me the strategy to balance public and private life, including with social media. He will give me mentors who I can learn from. In time, he will give me the grace to gather a strong team. He will continue to grow my capacity and resources in ways I haven’t dreamed of.

He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Phillipians 1:6

There is nothing too big for God. If I just keep walking out the vision one day at a time, it will accumulate. And since I will probably have the rest of my life to do it, I will take good care to preserve the stories.

Challenges:

• In waiting, stop controlling the timing. Don’t be discouraged if it takes a while.
• Realize that God answers prayers, not people. Direct your prayers rightly.
• Stop telling God your requirements; he knows what he’s doing better than you do.
• Be okay with things changing faster than you expected. Accept change when it comes faster than you expected.
• Recognize that anything God takes away, he will restore. Do not give yourself over to self-pity or despair, that will ruin you.
• Don’t absorb shame from others. Pray for them to know what freedom from performance feels like.
• Don’t absorb jealousy from others. Pray for them to receive a true revelation of sonship.
• Let God’s plan be greater.
• Pay attention to the parts of an atmosphere, organization, or person that do not resonate. Find a way to test the alignment.
• After heavy duty holy angelic encounters, follow the instructions but don’t be distressed if you don’t understand for a long while afterwards. Ask your questions. When the mystery feels sealed, don’t stress. The Lord will take you and lead you along by the hand. He will reveal it when you have time and capacity to process it.
• Your accuracy (whether you got it right) is actually less important than your obedience. Let God be the one who is most accurate and respond with your entire heart. When you respond from a pure heart, he will cause the road to unravel itself before you and you will not stumble (Proverbs 4:12). It ultimately isn’t about you.
• Understand that less clarity often is a sign that God is respecting your limits. Prioritize quality over speed.
• Enjoy the process.
• Remember that God was your only qualification in the beginning, and he will continue to be.
• Trust God for the mentors, strategy, resources, support, and capacity. He will do it.
• Preserve the story.